The Essence of Prayer

I love you with my heart.  I seek you with my heart.

After Christmas, I spent a couple of days on quiet retreat.  One evening, as I sat in silence before the Eucharist, I found myself praying these words to Jesus: (Breathing in) I love you with my heart; (breathing out) I seek you with my heart.  (Breathing in) I love you with my heart; (breathing out) I seek you with my heart.

As time passed, my prayer and my awareness changed.  No longer were these words coming from my heart to the Lord’s; I was aware that they were coming from His heart to mine.  I began my prayer by seeking to love Jesus more deeply, but the grace He gave me in prayer was the knowledge of how deeply He loves me.

That hour reminded me about the essence of prayer: it’s about relationship.  That hour also refocused me on the importance of keeping my prayer simple.  So often, when I go to pray, I have this inner urge to share as much as I can with the Lord.  But all I really need to do is be still and know that He is God (Psalm 46:10).  He already knows what’s in my heart.  My prayer is most fruitful when I simply allow myself to be loved by Him.  I don’t need to say a lot; I just need to be present to Him.

Last year, I challenged the readers of this blog to commit to daily silence.  I’d like to issue that challenge once again.  Every day, take time to be silent with the Lord.  Start with ten minutes, and then gradually increase your prayer time.  Let Him love you.  Resist the compulsion to be too wordy in your prayer.  He knows what’s in your heart.  When you pray today, simply sit in silence and pray: I love you with my heart; I seek you with my heart.  Then, realize that it’s not so much about you saying these words to the Lord; it’s more about Him saying them to you.

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Jesus and a Two-Dollar Bill

A couple of days before Christmas I went to my favorite breakfast spot, Cal’s.  It’s one of those great local restaurants where everybody knows your name.  The owners, Rich and Gina, are a wonderful married couple who always greet you with a smile and a joyful “good morning.”

I sat down at the breakfast bar and Doreen, the friendly waitress, took my order: two pumpkin pancakes, one egg over easy…and coffee of course.  Gina approached and began to tell me about a touching encounter that she’d just had with an elderly man.  As she spoke, she welled up with tears.  She recounted how the man had approached her at a store and asked if she had any children.  She said no, but stated that she had a young niece.  The man then gave her an envelope.  Inside was a two dollar bill and a message about the importance of keeping Christmas alive in your heart.

During this Christmas season we celebrate the coming of Christ into the world.  But Christ’s coming into the world was not just an historical event that is frozen in time.  Jesus still comes to us today–every day.  For Catholics, we encounter Christ in a very special way in the sacraments, especially in the Eucharist.  But there are other everyday moments when Jesus comes to us: in the kind gesture of another; in the soft smile of a stranger; in the giggle of a baby; in the gently falling snow; in the glowing sunset; in the spectacular nightsky.

What’s important is that we have a life of prayer so that we can develop the spiritual awareness to see Him in everyday situations. Once we have the spiritual awareness to see Him in our daily life, then we are able to welcome Him more deeply into our hearts.  And as we welcome Him throughout the day, our gratitude increases because we see how much He loves us and constantly reaches out to us.

I was touched by Gina’s story.  God spoke to her through that man.  The Lord made His love present to her through that man’s small, but kind, gesture.  How many ways does God show up during the day but we are too busy to see?  How many times does the Lord try to reach out to us, to show us His love, but we are too immersed in ourselves to be aware?

This Christmas season, let’s try to be more aware that the Lord comes to us in the seemingly insignificant moments of the day, even in a two dollar bill.
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How has the Lord reached out to you during this Christmas season?  How has he revealed His love to you through others?

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She Preached Without Words

“Preach the Gospel; if necessary, use words” (attributed to St. Francis of Assisi)

It was an unexpected, deeply moving, spiritual moment.  That’s how the Lord often works, isn’t it?  He surprises us, teaching us a lesson when we least expect it.

I was Master of Ceremonies for Bishop Tobin at a Confirmation last Thursday evening.  Being a Master of Ceremonies is typical for me, and, truthfully, I don’t expect to be spiritually moved during the ceremonies simply because I’m so focused on making sure everything goes smoothly.

The moment happened after the distribution of Holy Communion.  The congregation had been seated for a few minutes, and the deacon and I were at the altar consolidating the hosts into the ciboria so he could repose the Eucharist in the tabernacle.  Bishop Tobin was standing near the altar as well, and he gestured to me to look out at the congregation.  “Michael,” he said, “there are a couple of women coming forward to receive Communion.” Read more »

The Beauty of the Catholic Priesthood

“The priesthood is the love of the Heart of Jesus” (St. John Vianney)

My Dear friends,

For Catholic priests, few days are more meaningful than Holy Thursday.  It’s the day when Jesus instituted the ministerial priesthood.  The following post is longer than usual, but I felt compelled to share it with you.  It is my first Holy Thursday homily, given in 2002.  To all my readers, Catholic and non-Catholic alike, I hope in some small way my words and sentiments communicate the beauty of the priesthood.

Holy Thursday Homily (2002)

Fr. Walter Ciszek was a Jesuit priest in the first half of the 20th century.  As a young man Walter felt called to be a priest, so he decided to enter the Jesuit seminary.  One day the priest who was novice master read an important letter that had just come from Pope Pius XI.  The letter was addressed to priests and seminarians, especially Jesuits, asking them to consider becoming missionaries in Russia.  Immediately, Walter experienced a strong desire to be a missionary priest in Russia.  He said it was like a direct invitation from God.  So he finished his novitiate, went to Rome where he completed his studies, and eventually went to Russia.

But what Fr. Ciszek would encounter in Russia was not what he’d expected.

While there he was arrested for being a priest and convicted of being a danger to the government.  He was sentenced to years of hard labor in Siberia.  And it was in this cold, harsh prison camp where Fr. Ciszek would come to understand more deeply the awesome power, dignity and beauty of the priesthood.

It eventually became known throughout the camp that he was a priest; however, the security measures in the camp were so strong that if the guards suspected that he was ministering to the people he would be severely punished.  But in secret he began ministering to the prisoners; and he came to see that even Russian security guards in a Siberian prison camp could not hinder the priestly ministry that Christ entrusted to the Church, nor could it hinder the desire within God’s people to receive God’s grace through the sacraments.  Fr. Ciszek later wrote:

“The amazing thing to me was how little all these security measures affected a priest’s relations with other prisoners.  The moment he appeared on the campgrounds by himself or with a fellow priest, he would be joined by passing prisoners.  The moment it became known in a new brigade or new barracks or a new camp that a man was a priest, he would be sought out.  He didn’t have to make friends; they came to him instead.  It was a very humbling experience, because you quickly came to appreciate that it was God’s grace at work and had little to do with your own effortsPeople came to you because you were a priest, not because of what you were personally. They didn’t always come, either, expecting wise counsel or spiritual wisdom or an answer to their every difficulty; they came expecting absolution from their sins… You realized that they came to you as a man of God, a representative of God, a man chosen from among men and ordained for men in the things that are of God; you realized, too, that this imposed upon you an obligation of service, of ministry, with no thought of personal inconvenience, no matter how tired you might be physically or what risks you might be running in the face of official threats.”

The power, the beauty, the dignity of the sacred priesthood!  This Holy Thursday Night, we come to this church to celebrate the Mass of the Lord’s Supper.  We celebrate that night when Jesus Christ instituted the Holy Eucharist and the ministerial priesthood.  Tonight is that one night of the year when priests are humbled to be able to speak about the dignity and beauty of the Priesthood, the priesthood which Christ entrusted to his Church to continue his sacred ministry.

Who is the priest? Pope John Paul II once wrote that the priest is “the living and transparent image of Christ the priest.” The man who is a priest is chosen and consecrated by God to make the love of Christ present in the world.  At his ordination, the man who is ordained a priest is configured to Jesus Christ, the true High Priest, in a very special way.  On his ordination day, a man becomes a priest in his very being.  From that day, his deepest identity is that he is a priest, a priest forever.  He is a priest in his very being.  It is his life.  Even if he is not functioning as a priest, he is always a priest. This is one of the lessons Fr. Ciszek learned in the prison camps: people were drawn to him when they learned he was a priest.  It was not so much what he did, but who he was, who he represented.  He was another Christ, and the people knew that his life belonged to Christ and that he was to make Christ’s love present to them in concrete, tangible ways.

With all the negative press lately, with the revelations of the failings of priests, I feel compelled on this Holy Night to speak about the true beauty and dignity of the priestly vocation.  A sweet burden is placed upon the shoulder of a priest: in imitation of Christ he is to offer his life in service to the Church, the People of God.  On the day of his ordination he literally prostrates himself on the floor symbolizing his union with Christ who offered his life for us all.  The priest is ordained to lead people to God, particularly through the sacraments.

On this night we celebrate the institution of the Body and Blood of Christ.  It is through the priest that the Body and Blood of Christ are made present on our altars.  It is through the priest that we receive absolution from our sins.  It is through the priest that the sick are strengthened and the dying are made ready for Heaven through the anointing of the sick.

As Fr. Walter Ciszek lived, so every priest is called to put aside all personal ambition; he is called to sacrifice his own personal comfort for one reason: so that people might come to know the Person of Christ through him.  He freely chooses to live celibately as another way to love, as a way to model himself after the person of Christ.  The priest is celibate for you! Through his celibacy his people should see that he is wed to the Church and shares a special union with Christ.

To be a priest is a beautiful vocation!  It is particularly sweet because the priest is called to share a special union with Christ crucified.  The moment that Christ revealed the depth of his love was his crucifixion.  The priest should live his life in such a way that when people see him they should see Christ pouring his life out upon the Cross all because he loves!

Yes, the priesthood is a beautiful vocation, a gift to the Church.  And just as Russian prison guards and Siberian prison camps could not hinder the ministry of priests and the desire of God’s people to receive the sacraments, neither will the present crisis in the Church hinder the ministry of good priests and the desire of God’s holy people. The priesthood was instituted by Jesus Christ and the priesthood will continue to flourish because of Jesus Christ.

We give thanks this night for the sacred priesthood and for the Holy Eucharist, which is our life, our strength, and our pledge of future glory.

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The Gift of Spiritual Friendship

Usually when I write a post for this blog I reflect on the spiritual life and give some practical advice about how to live in deeper friendship with the Lord.  However, this post, prompted by a recent experience, is more a reflection on the gift of friendship.  If anything, I hope it makes you more [...]

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End Your Long Distance Relationship–With the Lord

As a priest, people often talk to me about their lives and their problems. Inevitably, I ask them how their relationship with God is. I can usually tell from their response if they have a long distance relationship with the Lord. The language they use reveals that a deep, personal friendship with God is somewhat of a foreign concept. For example, they’ll say, “Well, I say my prayers at night before I go to bed,” or “I go to church,” or, my favorite, “I talk to the Big Guy in the sky; we’re tight.” Great. Saying prayers at night and going to church is a wonderful way to deepen our relationship with God. But saying prayers at night and going to church does not necessarily mean that we have a deep, personal friendship with the Lord either. And as for “talking to the Big Guy in the sky,” that’s simply not Christian spirituality; it’s deism. In fact, therein lay the problem: too many people think God is “out there somewhere” rather than very close to them.

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